back on

I have been trying to watch less tv and only surf the web when necessary, so that i could use my time more wisely. Ive been doing this for about 2-3 months now. Im realizing that it is a good idea for someone as unfocused as me, unfortunately. Im reading Fayga Ostrowers book on creativity again, actually im reading 4 books simutaneously, 5 the past week (art history), and im so glad im back on that because i have been feeling more expressive lately. There is one problem, i dont seem to let go of time when im working, sometimes 10 minutes go by and i feel like stopping, like i have been at it for 2 hours. I know there is something wrong because i could work for hours on end and only stop to eat very fast just to go back right away. I think there is a lot i need to get out, in a very clear way. i think i have been choosing the wrong methods and ive been blaming everything i can and everyone and myself. Whats really to blame? My chatty mind with overlapping thoughts.

wood, styrofoam, printing, material research

wood prints-planet prints-styrofoam bubbles-modern igloo-plastic bottle igloo

leap of faith

i asked to open a random book and read a passage that gave me advice to act upon.





pg 62

Fui a um médico, expus-lhe minhas observações, procurei descrever-lhe o meu mal. Ele as leu, fez perguntas e começou a me examinar.
"O senhor tem uma saúde invejável", elogiou o médico após o exame. "Fisicamente nada lhe falta. Procure distrair-se com leitura e música."
"Eu já leio, por profissão, diariamente uma porção de coisas novas."
"De qualquer forma seria aconselhável praticar exercícios ao zar livre"
"Ando todos os dias de três a quatro horas e nas férias pelo menos o dobro."
"Então o senhor deve se obrigar a conviver com outras pessoas, pois corre o risco de se tornar, seriamente, um misantropo."
"E o que importa isso?"
"Importa que o caso pode se tornar grave. Quanto mais tempo se passar, maior será seu desprazer no convívio com as pessoas e daí a necessidade do senhor se esforçar por procurá-las. Seu estado ainda não é patológico e não me parece digno de preocupações; porém, se o senhor não deixar de perambular por aí de maneira tão passiva, poderá bem perder o seu equilíbrio."

Watching part of Matilda and all of Inkheart today reminded me i havent been reading, i think the whole point of this day was to remind me to open up a book again. i have been feeling a bit empty lately and i figured its because i havent been exercising my imagination.

what is

What is the difference of painting landscape and the human figure?
You see a figure from outside. A landscape you experience and paint from within. It is like eating soup versus swimming in it. Very different.

-Alex Kanevsky
interview