back on

I have been trying to watch less tv and only surf the web when necessary, so that i could use my time more wisely. Ive been doing this for about 2-3 months now. Im realizing that it is a good idea for someone as unfocused as me, unfortunately. Im reading Fayga Ostrowers book on creativity again, actually im reading 4 books simutaneously, 5 the past week (art history), and im so glad im back on that because i have been feeling more expressive lately. There is one problem, i dont seem to let go of time when im working, sometimes 10 minutes go by and i feel like stopping, like i have been at it for 2 hours. I know there is something wrong because i could work for hours on end and only stop to eat very fast just to go back right away. I think there is a lot i need to get out, in a very clear way. i think i have been choosing the wrong methods and ive been blaming everything i can and everyone and myself. Whats really to blame? My chatty mind with overlapping thoughts.