im reading again

A Paixao Segundo G.H.
Clarice Lispector

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the question is: where do YOU want to be?

Roxy Paine -- Chis Drury

i am attracted to everything mostly visually. i have thought that i was interested in concept. i probably still am, because i believe anything has a meaning behind it. I WANT TO BE in a world where the beautiful meaning of things are understood. where the colors and forms can speak without words and we can listen with our eyes. i adore all my other senses. but i dont know where i would be without my vision.

here, specifically, i dont care what the artist meant with this vortex surrounding a tree. im sure im not offending him, im sure he would be happy to know that just the thought of being inside it and admiring the scenery amazes me.

i should startstart

what it is is what it is

By day I praised you
and never knew it.
By night I stayed with you
and never knew it.
I always thought that
I was me--but no,
I was you
and never knew it.

-Rumi

i got a cold over the weekend, now im starting the weekend with a stuffy nose and a sore throat. i've been missing class a lot lately, its not even an option anymore. i just hope it doesn't rain this week. that doesnt mean i wish it to be super hot, god no.

i have a to do list from last year still waiting to be done. i cant believe i run out of gas so fast.

i want to paint more often

i might be a lot into painting right now just because this past week i told someone i wasnt that into paiting. i tend to contradict myself very often.

Paula Rego

im not very into her compositions, actually i dont think i like most of her work, but there is this dirty and raw feeling i get from her subjects that make them really interesting.

right now its marc chagall and illustrations

i feel im refining my taste, i have always felt a bit lost when it comes to liking things and never really knew how to find those special details in a piece. right now im in love with the feeling a chagall gives me, how his figues seem weightless and boneless, thats how i want to feel and what i want to transmit through my work. Plus, im really into illustrations right now. I was on amazon and ran into some childrens books, i like them mostly because of the drawings, even though some have amusing stories. Anne Herbauts drawings are so interesting, they are all very huggable. While Beatrice Alemagna creates such beautiful images, they just blow me away completely, i doubt i grew up surrounded by beutiful drawings, i dont remember my books being so gracious as these. I also have been loving Julia Pott's illus for a while now.

what the hell am i doing, still

a beautiful story by Keri Smith



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i've been working very often, keeping in touch with my self, my mind, my creativity. i feel happy about it but im more anxious then when i wasnt doing anything. everytime i stop working i think i should keep going, no shouldnt stop to drink water, or shower, or eat, or sleep, or answer the phone. no i shouldnt do the dishes or help my mom clean the house. it seems when i am most energized and willing to sit and work my eyes off, there are more " important things" going on that ask for me. right now i am working when they are not asking for me.
i want to gather my strengths and say no to everything. i want to lock myself up and not leave until i feel worthy of being a somebody.


18. Stay up late.
Strange things happen when you’ve gone too far, been up too long, worked too hard, and you're separated from the rest of the world.

a list of things that help

feeling lost in space

here

Simba and his new buddy: the new neighbor

simba doesnt like him since he's always invading our home, peeing everywhere, stealing the toys and eating all the food. we call him Pancinha -meaning 'potbelly', look at it, its like a beergut.