letter to myself

i know i do things that have been done, and that i discover things that have already been discovered. but it doesnt mean anything to me unless i go through the process myself. we hardly learn from others mistakes. i think especially in art, we must go through history at our own pace and go through each revolution ourselves before we can read a history book and understand what each artist discovered and why they chose to do things a certain way. so what if its been done before. i havent done it, so its new and innovative to me. to be revolutionary in the world and in history we have to first revolutionize ourselves and our path. i cant come up with something new from scratch. let me discover what has already been done my own way and dont take the value of what i learned away from me just because the idea had already been there. no one creates, so really all we do is discover. everything that exists is already there, what i am doing is a natural process of growth and evolution. understand that.