Bluh

i picked flowers last year during lunch. i needed somewhere to put them so i made a vase.

Im so sick of this.
its the 4th week of school, and my thoughts about it are already becoming dull. people are dull.

Today there was a assembly, to discuss this years student government, somehow someone heard that the school was recieving money from some institution and that none of the students would be taking part of the decisions of where that money is going, so a few students put together this meeting. I was thinking about making some changes in the school, at least physically, like cleaner walls, toilet paper in the bathrooms, materials. But now that there are people thinking about it im not really interested anymore. it should be the other way around. but i rather come up with the idea and have other people assess me, other than join a huge group and struggle to get my ideas through, plus be somebody elses little errand runner. fuck that, i guess its my lazy nature.

i know i want to go somewhere, but i dont know exaclty where, and right now i dont know how to get there.

i really need help.

with everything.

shitty weekend